A Very Different Christmas

 So there has been many life changing events going on lately.  My friend and my child have passed this physical world this year.  This I know deep inside me; is not the end. This is just the beginning of a whole new and eventful life. Another plane of existence yes, but not the end of anything at all.  My child has transcended to a new plane. He has gone like he always did; Ahead and forward to make sure that my path was secured and safe for me.  I will be reunited one day. 

When that day comes I feel now that I won’t fear death as much as I did when I had massive anxiety and depression.  

The one little soul I have to thank this year most of all is this little creature. Canela. She is so instinctual in my emotional “needless” that is almost telepathic.  Since the first day that my child was gone from my arms ,  she was there. Doing whatever she could (bringing her toys to the bed) so that I wouldn’t feel alone and with a void in my heart, to even now sitting besides me as I type this entry.

I should reciprocate this kindness and take her out to walk.  I’m not the owner, she is my daughter now and she takes care of me in the best way she can.  My child, my Capi left me in good hands. 

First time I have a Santa in the house . . . is super creepy. ( I could see this this suddenly running and trying to bite me *shudders*)