So it has been a while since last I was here but I finally got my way back after promising myself that I wouldn't until everything was in order. Well so far it has been a bit more than a year since all this legal lingo had changed my life.
Finally, it feels that for the first time in my life I feel that I have the right to be on this earth. No longer do I feel like a ghost or a shadow in hiding. But as a human being.
This new change had brought other changes as well, a new place where to live. Yes, I have moved from the place I practically spent half my life to a whole different town. Where the people are different. Different social class, different ideologies, and definitely a different world. In one sentence, it all can be summed up to a simple "I hate this place!"
I'm coping with it though, even Capi seems to be saddened by this place. On a brighter note though, finally for the first time the acquisition of my drivinng permit seems to be bringing home more liberty and responsibilities than were possible before.
The new place tends to brings a very convinient method of transportation to he city which due to financial reasons I have not been able to completely use. Though the proximity to the city has sparked new trips that have allowed me to find myself amongst the cloud of confusion. Allowing myself to be more me.
The next step would be to find my own financial independence so that for once and for all I get to be able to be more my age since so far I have been more like a 9 year old boy than anything. Hopefully soon this all would be a happy thing and once again I can regained what I had once lost. Financial, mental, and overall stability and independence.
No more excuses, no more permission but lots and lots of responsibilities and new attitudes in a kinder or rather non persecuting world. . . At last!
This has been Firechild just talking to himself on the net signing off.
