Random Rant of Frustration

I feel as  if nothing really has changed. It seems as if the only thing that changed is that we are doing the same thing except that we are very aware of it all. The jealousy thing is still very present and the mooching is definitely very very present. I'm so physically drained and tired. This makes me so . . . TIRED. I thought work was the one responsible of me being so drained of all energy, I realize now that it's all because I'm still dealing with this whole thing. Even as I type this I'm nodding off  into overthinking my situation with this 'relationship.' I'm going to bed. . .

Truth is . . . I'm  going to bed to overthink things and then feel frustrated by his happiness on his games, in more than one way.

FwB = Freedom?

So lots of things have happened. . . as always ^_^! but to summarize almost a year of the lack of blogging. I think that I am doing better. I have come to the conclusion and awareness that I am nothing that much to this guy and that I need to start moving on seriously this time. We have had come to an agreement that we won't hide anything from each other and that we would be open to a new kind of arrangement. FWB seems to fit the label, as such a stigma as this holds I believe that this might be for the best. I hate having to hide and him lie about nothing, specially when there is no need for it. Hopefully this doesn't blow up in our faces but to be honest at least for now I'm beginning to feel a bit more "free." It's a start.