A Very Different Christmas

 So there has been many life changing events going on lately.  My friend and my child have passed this physical world this year.  This I know deep inside me; is not the end. This is just the beginning of a whole new and eventful life. Another plane of existence yes, but not the end of anything at all.  My child has transcended to a new plane. He has gone like he always did; Ahead and forward to make sure that my path was secured and safe for me.  I will be reunited one day. 

When that day comes I feel now that I won’t fear death as much as I did when I had massive anxiety and depression.  

The one little soul I have to thank this year most of all is this little creature. Canela. She is so instinctual in my emotional “needless” that is almost telepathic.  Since the first day that my child was gone from my arms ,  she was there. Doing whatever she could (bringing her toys to the bed) so that I wouldn’t feel alone and with a void in my heart, to even now sitting besides me as I type this entry.

I should reciprocate this kindness and take her out to walk.  I’m not the owner, she is my daughter now and she takes care of me in the best way she can.  My child, my Capi left me in good hands. 

First time I have a Santa in the house . . . is super creepy. ( I could see this this suddenly running and trying to bite me *shudders*)

Sitting, Waiting, In a Bank ... a Post-Christmas Reflexion

Bank's Vault is so "Christmassy" 

So I'm currently in a bank, came to help chiyo resolve an issue with his account, but it seems that he'll b hither for a while so I wanted to post a bit on this blog meanwhile.
Well it seems that there's a lot of people in the bank today, mainly because new year's is coming so they're trying to get all their transactions ready before they close until 2012. Aparently the world is ending then so oh well lol
I keep seeing people coming and depositing tons of money which makes me think "where do this people come up with that much cash?" I've been thinking that perhaps starting a business might be the best thing for me to do, I am tiredof working for stupid bosses that don't know how to manage a business, treat customers and overall mistreat employees. Perhaps is best that I run a business myself and make more than miserable 2 dollars a week and killing myself over it. If I'm running a business for someone I'm at least in need of a freaking raise (perhaps 3 dollars a week :p)
On the bright side my tax return will b coming back soon, hopefully it helps me a little bit...
I have faith that God had something stored for me/my family we WILL be in a better financial situation than the one we are in now. As they say "God squeezes but he doesn't choke" ...ironically with all the debts and things that are happening I don't feel worried at all, optimism? Perhaps but also maybe is my subconscious or faith itself telling me that something better awaits us :)