Sitting, Waiting, In a Bank ... a Post-Christmas Reflexion

Bank's Vault is so "Christmassy" 

So I'm currently in a bank, came to help chiyo resolve an issue with his account, but it seems that he'll b hither for a while so I wanted to post a bit on this blog meanwhile.
Well it seems that there's a lot of people in the bank today, mainly because new year's is coming so they're trying to get all their transactions ready before they close until 2012. Aparently the world is ending then so oh well lol
I keep seeing people coming and depositing tons of money which makes me think "where do this people come up with that much cash?" I've been thinking that perhaps starting a business might be the best thing for me to do, I am tiredof working for stupid bosses that don't know how to manage a business, treat customers and overall mistreat employees. Perhaps is best that I run a business myself and make more than miserable 2 dollars a week and killing myself over it. If I'm running a business for someone I'm at least in need of a freaking raise (perhaps 3 dollars a week :p)
On the bright side my tax return will b coming back soon, hopefully it helps me a little bit...
I have faith that God had something stored for me/my family we WILL be in a better financial situation than the one we are in now. As they say "God squeezes but he doesn't choke" ...ironically with all the debts and things that are happening I don't feel worried at all, optimism? Perhaps but also maybe is my subconscious or faith itself telling me that something better awaits us :)

The Bubble of Non-Reality

 Today I'm typing this entry from a public library.  Sitting here and listening to music on my phone as I type on a public computer and people walking around me, the smell of coffee and fresh made espressos, and the smell of the humid and cold air of December, makes this a very enticing environment to just sit here and type all day. ^_^! Ironically is much more comfortable to be doing this rather than at my house.  It's pretty early but as an university campus should be there is people in the library actually doing work. I have yet to get myself to get another job.  My last job is gone and now I'm here unemployed.  I have been looking at things but I'm not sure everything is just not paying enough and they expect you to give them your soul like "part-time" jobs that are supposed to take just a couple hours from your day but end up consuming your life.  Mainly because the hours that they put you to work are impossible to maintain a life.  For example one shift on Mondays might be from 3PM to 8PM but in the mean time you could not do anything else for the other days because the schedule changes every week so you never can make any plans or get paid enough, yet this people expect you to be able to be there on-call and never able to pay well enough for the overload of things that you must do for them.  Things like this is what a lot of teenagers have to go through in order to pay their expenses since many parents cannot do it for them anymore.  The economy in itself is a delusion of prosperity, the national debt has reached an impossible limit to pay now and the system has been designed to fail.  Yet millions of people still taking advantage of the credit system are making the global economy go into a hyper inflation that will eventually consume the fabric of what the US prides itself in, money.

This bubble of reality that the media and everyone lives in is making this world look towards a gleam future.  point is for now . . . I need to get a job and try to co-exist in this bubble as well as I can possibly do.

the return of the spectre and many other things

  This is going to be a very short rambling since there's really not much to say, kinda like another real quick mention of things just to keep them in the record. ^_^!

So the spectre was returned indeed though for the good news of all, she is staying at random people houses. I guess is a good thing because that way she can't stay there long enough to annoy people. Either way chiyo gets really douchy and possessive-aggressive whenever anyone touches anything that's the specters property.  Litterally, touches them Oo0.  Marucha went home and ironically I think that we're getting better at dealing with each other. For what I hear from Marucha, little snippets here and there her sister is still being a hateful mofo towards me.  What can I say 'haterz gonna hate' lol 


    So aparently Gaddafi is now dead, which makes me worry about what's going to happen next. Retaliation from more terrorists or other countries? Who knows and to be perfectly honest i'm not really sure what this guy did, but I keep hearing that it was nothing that good.  I honestly don't know much about that situation but what I do know is that the generation of today does not want to keep seeing all the hatred and violence.  I keep seeing black kids playing with white kids and random hispanic, asian, etc kids playing together not really caring or discriminating on race. Ironically that doesn't seem to be the case with people in later generations, twenty-somethings and up.  It seems, at least in the US that we finally are reaching a level of assimilation where people are judged by their individuality rather than by their race. We are becoming a society in where not only in theory but also in practice we are judge as individuals rather than stereotypes... keyword is "becoming" since we are not there yet.  Many other countries in the Americas like Mexico, El Salvador, Peru, etc. have already reached a level of homogenization in where people are not judged by race but by the individual.  Kids of european descent and kids of black/native/x race are considered Mexican, Salvadorian, Peruvians, etc. That, makes in those people's populations have a common national identity that you rarely see in the USA. People here still call themselves, Italian, Irish, Chinese, etc. because the national identity of their forefathers was that strong. What about the one of the new generation? These kids are now becoming the new face of the United States. They and only they know how it is to live and grow in the United States. Ironically it seems that there's no structure of a national identity that these kids look towards to. Spongebob, iCarly and movies tell them what is like to be from here.  Many kids and parents don't even know that is disrespectful to have a print of your flag in underwear. The sense of culture is nonexistent in a way that all these cultures mixed together make a gray color of insecurities and a sensorship-trigger-happy media that prevents this country from becoming an actual country rather than a market for culture identities.  


    A new culture is indeed coming out of all this nonsense, let us hope that is one with principles and conviction towards a better future. Free of prejudice and God-willing, free from the bubble of the media.

Re-cap of now

 So since I have finished typing/transcribing from the leather-bound physical journal to here there was a lot of other things that happened that I did not mentioned before.  In short, since I really don't want to dwell on these things since I have moved passed them (still want to keep them in record).  Marucha stopped answering my calls and texts out of nowhere.  She got a bf and then that relationship turned sour.  I was worried that something happened specially since we were supposed to go to Maryland within two weeks of this happening and I had no contact with her.  I figured something bad really had happened.  I visited Gio's new place and it was alright but I would never live there lol.  I decided to go and pay a visit to Marucha's house thinking that something really bad had happened.  I got there and noone was home.  On my way back, Marucha called me and said that she just got home and then explained that pretty much it was all her sister that for some crazy reason she has this weird vendetta towards me.  Note that I have been nothing but nice to this girl. Either way she came to meet me and her sister freaked out on the street towards me. Honestly it was kinda shocking because I was not expecting this from a person that I have done nothing but being nice; either way, it happened and honestly I could care less since I came to see if Marucha was alright not to see her.  I stayed the night and Marucha explained, I came home the next day and went to work.  Marucha later that week came here so that we could go to Maryland. We went and it was fun ^_^! came back the Father and the Mother, Chiyo and even Capi went in the car to leave Marucha at her house. We came and left and then Marucha moved in, her sister came, totally ignoring me, I ironically said "hi" and "good bye" but she just wouldn't look at me, whatever it is honestly is not my issue, I haven't done anything wrong to her so honestly just live and let live.  My work has been hecticly stupid, people getting hired and fired left and right.  They keep calling me when they can't do something because they're stupid honestly.  And I just learned that the med-school that I was planning to go is now being absorbed by another university thus they shall break it in to smaller medical schools, meaning and HOPEFULLY God willing it would be easier for me to actually get in one of them in the same state ^_^!


 As Capi goes, he has been bored out of his mind, I have been so tired and actually it has been a week that I have been sick, so I haven't taken him  out anywhere for long walks and such.  Another thing is that I have a weird schedule thus I can't really take him at any time.  


I've been working on Sundays too :/ oh well money is money is what I say.
I miss being in school all day :( Can't believe Marucha hates it so much, to each its own.
I need to start reviewing everything all over again!


Ok, this has been another grammatically-incorrect rant for the record. . .  I really need to do something about my writing "style" ^_^!


Ps: my sister might come to NYC for vaca :P

Finally Up to Date

      So I have finally finished transcribing all the entries from the physical diary to the new and improved "digital" diary.  I'm going to miss that little book. I think I might just use it as a dream journal or something. I just can't seem to let such good leather-bound paper go to waste.  
     
      As I was transcribing into this blog thing I had the urge of blogging about blogging lol.  Just glad It was done ^_^!

06/22/11

Birthday's Eve                      2:48 PM

   So, it has been a while since I've gotten more than 12 hours of work, now thanks to the laziness of a co-worker I took over her shift of 7 hours putting my total hours for this week at about 21 ( hey it is a part-time).

   The spectre has done now back to her lair (FL) and she's left in the shittiest way, ditched chiyo and went to get high, then came back (at the request of Child) for like 5 minutes, to say that she got high and drunk and that it was Child's fault because she told him that she was going to do that when he was drunk.  The idiot gobbled that up and of course said " ah yea that was my fault"  in the first place, why do you need to do that when supposedly  you came to visit Chiyo, oh well what I can say is that what goes around comes around.

   So Chiyo's  birthday is tomorrow and I'm not sure what to get him, although I think I got an idea. I bought him before a Betta fish, but they all died (We bought line 3). I'm thinking in giving him a pretty one, his tank is just sitting on his bedside, empty. Perhaps this addition of a tiny soul that he  would have to take care will softer him a little bit (or so that's the plan). I might just go to Pet Co. today and pick a good one for him. ^_^! It's convenient that he works until 12:30 AM so that when he gets home he'll have his birthday present on his actual birthday ^_^!

   PS: I've been thinking in transcribing all this entries in blogger, though the issue is that is kinda difficult to type all this in my phone; I need a laptop ^_^!

PPS: Need to start on a strict diet regiment (abs are 10% exercise 90% diet) I have all the knowledge but lack of will, need to not think about it and just do it, need to get a better body soon.

06/16/11

Wondering Spectres            2:00 AM

  It has been about two weeks since that last entry, my work hours have been cut,  still I managed to still not gotten fired, hoping that when the boss's sister leaves I'll have more hours. ^_^! I'm kind of afraid of carrying my phone around because its expensive, but is so useful I can't leave home with out it=. Today I got the new unlimited plan, where i get everything (web, talk, text) little thing is that's $20 dollars more than the current bill I pay. Seems like a whole weeks paycheck is going to pay my phone *I need a new job* well as you can see from the title the "Wondering Spectre" has shown up  tonight, around 12:50 AM. We (parents, Capi and Chiyo) were coming back from picking up chiyo form McDonald's (he gets out around 12:30 AM) and we left his friend/manager (Ivan) at home and proceeded to come home; on the way home, my mom noticed a glowing head in the distance. Since my dad was parking at the time. The headlights illuminated this glowing dead, making the face of this spectre shine in the whiteness and accentuated its shadows. For a moment it looked extremely tall and full of sorrow, not to mention extremely CREEPY, to which I properly exclaimed "that's Creepy!" My mom did say look is Victoria, or her ghost is now roaming the house. Chiyo's eyes lighted up with confusion, surprise, happiness. Yep, the Victoria had indeed arrived from Florida un-announced, now I say that's nice, she came to visit Child, But for some reason I don't quite believe this is happening for her being so charitable, she has something going in for her. She could be sad/homesick or . . . she needs something hmmm... I went to shower and I overheard her talking to Child something about him "paying the way over there, and her paying the way back" Idk but sounds like the so called Christmas present that never came "I have an idea, why don't you buy me an expensive gift, and I'll get you one in return for Christmas" . . . Yup sounds familiar alright. Now I have just gotten out of the shower and I see that chiyo and her are no longer in the premises hmm... I wonder, could they have gone to Chiyo's ATM to withdraw all chiyo's money's hmm... I wouldn't be surprised if that actually happened I would like to say that I"m being exaggerated, that i'm being too judgemental but the sad true is that this person is one of those people that you just know what they have hiding, there's no depth/mystery to them (including today's trip). She mentioned on facebook that she felt like coming to NJ well lo' and behold, she's hither, 24hrs later. I wonder who's going to eventually pay for that impulse . . . and I"m talking about money hither. 

   You know I'm not obsessed over money nor anything is just that it seems unfair to  me that every time my brother works his ass off to get a penny every thing goes away so this woman can go and spend it with other guys. May be I shouldn't feel so bad, he probably deserves it for being  so gullible.  Is just frustrating, God help these children not harm each other, help my brother get somewhere good in this world, and this woman too so she stops extortioning others.  God please also give me patience and wisdom to act in your name to not do things I shouldn't do to help me be the guide of them and help me open the path towards a good place for my family and their loved ones, and my loved ones.  It's getting late (2:34 AM) more on this soon to come, hopefully and God-willing good news.

PS: Capi's bored, Father's tired and probably sick (too much work, not enough sleep) mother's desperate of being home, Marucha's working. Diana's doing  zumba. I'm still getting fat 135lbs 14%body fat :'( must work out. ^_^!